When you see that word, doesn't it just stress you out?! Lol. I'm venting - so skip over this if you're not up for reading it. :)
And I was doing so good! Mentally.
My baby can't breath again. (Sue I've been thinking about you all day. "Write it and release". Let's see if this helps the ol' anxiety ;). Carter's allergies kicked-in, again, a couple of days ago. (I say "again" because he's been fine for weeks). He started wheezing yesterday and it's just gotten worse. Way worse. His chest is heaving and he's so wheezy. The nebs are helping but every time this happens, it takes a few days for his breathing to get back to normal. (And I thought I caught it on time when I gave him nebs when this started)!
I've been doing awesome. I've been excited and enjoying the whole house project. The summer sun has been a blessing and I haven't been frazzled. I'm still not too bad. Yet. But I'm so tense right now. I can't even begin to explain this fear! I want to sit down and bawl. (I mentioned before, that's my stress reliever). :)
He's playing fine, right now. He just had a breathing treatment so he's not wheezing as bad. And I just gave him some Benadryl. I didn't think of that until now. Then it occurred to me, as I was giving it to him, that this could be peanut-allergy related. I think that a lot when he gets like this. But of course, as I rack my brain, it's hard to think of everything that he's eaten and what he's eaten that was different. But it's always there in the back of my mind when he gets like this. And he doesn't have the hives, which he's gotten every time with the peanut reaction.
I imagine this is pretty close to what that's like! And I feel terrified when he looks at me with panic, waving his little arms, so upset because he can't breath. It's just awful. I will never get use to this. As long as I live.
He was doing that earlier when we were garage sailing...and it was the longest trip home! I was going to do a post about all the good junk I got today. Another time. When I'm not so tense. :)
Write it and release...write it and release...write it and release...write it and...
Friday, June 29, 2007
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Oh, Jen. Poor little Carter. I'm sure it's so hard to be a baby and not be able to breathe.
I hope the writing helped.
Poor baby. We had the same thing last night.. Spencer woke at midnight last night coughing, by 3:30 he couldn't breathe. I gave his a treatment and at about 5am he finally could relax enough to sleep. It's awful watching your child struggle to breathe. Today he seemed better but tonight he needed the nebs again. I dread what this night might bring. Hang in there Jen...hopefully both these boys will feel better and we can all get some rest.
Oh Sue. I feel so bad for you right now! In no way am I glad that you're going through this, but I have to admit it's nice to know that I'm not the only one. I know you understand this stress!
And that's another thing I love about this blog - I never knew your kids had breathing problems before this. :)
Rodney and Adriana have asthma. Rodney, knock on wood, has only had 1 or 2 spells a year for the past few years. Adriana on the other hand is struggling lots this past year. It's bad since she started swimming in the pools, I think the chlorine is causing it. Spencer doesn't have asthma but has had pneumonia about 4 times. Don't know if that is what this is or not. Funny how this blog is helping link family tendencies...the allergy thing, with Carter and Amanda's Paul (bees) and the breathing issues.
I know! (About linking). I just love the connections here (I say that all the time but I mean it).
I'm hoping Carter will outgrow his asthma. I did, for the most part. It only bothers me from time-to-time when I'm pregnant.
A few of my friends out here (Kate & Maggie to name a couple) have kids with asthma but as they've been getting older, it's been getting better. It just gives me a little hope that this too shall pass!
The peanut allergy though, I don't *ever* allow myself to have any hope that that will go away. Em said that only about 30% of kids actually outgrow that and Carter has had far worse reactions than Cale. Which makes us wonder if he has it worse than Cale... We'll find out when we get him tested. One more year. Our doctor recommended waiting until he was three.
Oh I hope Spencer doesn't have pneumonia! Carter's had it at least twice so far.
And Carter's sleeping! :) I had put on your blog that he was just going to bed.
Once he falls asleep, he's usually relaxed enough that his breathing relaxes and he's fine for the night. But some nights, we're up for literally, (and I know you can relate) hours before he actually falls asleep. I hardly dare to breath a sigh of relief. Don't want to jinx it! ;)
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