A Challenge

Another one?! I know but I just love these.

I am: outgoing, an open-book, moody when I'm pregnant, confident, insecure, stressed out, crabby when I'm stressed out, moving into a new house, looking forward to a whole new beginning to my life, scared to death of heights, deep water, ticks, and bats, willing to try new things.

I want: a couch and chairs for my living room, a vintage card rack, a bed for Mark & me, vintage lights for my house, vintage things for my house, gardens full of flowers, a playhouse for my kids, a pool, our new home to be filled with love.

I have: my faith, many fond and happy memories, many dreams, a whole lot to be thankful for, financial debt, a life filled with love, food on the table, a roof over my head, and a husband and children who love me.

I wish: that I will never have too much money, that I knew how to paint pictures, that I will learn how to be a seamstress, that I could take beautiful pictures, that my children will always believe, that I will have a cabin on a lake, that I was extremely witty & funny, that my husband didn't have to work so much :), I could read Alex Haley's Roots again.

I hate: when my house is a mess, when it's disorganized, when my kids don't obey me, when I procrastinate, having anxiety/depression.

I miss: the days before I got anxiety/depression, being young and carefree without responsibilities (but I'm very thankful for my life right now), lazy summer days as a kid, old friends that I've lost touch with, believing in Santa Claus.

I hear: cars driving by, my kids playing together, giggling, my washing machine end-of-cycle buzzer, silence, music everywhere.

I wonder: when our house will be finished, why the sky is blue, why can't people fly, why I can't relax, what kind of dogs we'll get, when my mom & dad will visit next, why I'm so nervous about starting to sell on Ebay?

I regret: few things in life. You live and learn!

I am not: shy (most of the time), cynical, prompt, able to do more than 10 things at once, a good neighbor (I prefer to keep to myself and hope they do the same), an acrobat (although, my kids think I am), very witty, not always articulate in real life, always outgoing.

I dance: to the beat of my own drum. (Edited to add)

I sing: all of the time, at church, in the car, at home.

I cry: when I'm really angry, when I'm stressed out, when I'm really happy, when I'm touched, when I'm sad, more than I used to.

I am not always: a good mom, a good wife, very patient, a good person, someone who does everything on time, someone who arrives on-time for anything.

I make with my hands: meals for my family, flannel burp cloths for my babies, Christmas stockings for my children, refinished furniture and other decor for my home.

I write: grocery lists, to-do lists, birthday cards, emails, blog entries, comments on others blogs.

I need: to be by myself once in a while, a good stress-reliever, a vacation, peace and quiet sometimes, a day off, and time for myself every evening.

I should: pack up our stuff, clean/organize the basement of our new house, move some of these boxes to our new house, refinish some of my furniture, work on some of my projects, make supper.

I start: projects, packing, the car, the wheels turning in my mind, organizing, going crazy.

I finish: doing laundry, a good book, projects, a pot of coffee, eating, most things that I start.